My Little World

 Red Envelop      The Lunar New Year is around the corner! I was busy preparing the food as well as decorating the house. I shopped for food to worship the altar as usual. I pray for the good health and the success in both career and studying. Usually, it's my mom who clean up the house and prep the food, however, we got a sad news so mom will be staying with Grandma for about two-three months based on her health conditions. I did not complaint or get upset about anything because I knew that we have been through a lot this year. So, I would like this new year to be easy on me!     This year I got the job working with the kids, so I think of giving them some lucky money to wish them luck on everything. Though I spent out a lot this month, still I felt at peace in my heart. I'm happy when seeing they're happy as well. So I started prepping the red envelop for the kids, it was limited due to my budget so I just give the kids in Learning Support and Ms.Fazz's c...

      Grandma's Forgetfulness      I was having a little problem with grandma two hours right before Lunar New Year. Last week, I took her to cash out a few for her luck money gift to the grandchildren. She said to withdraw $400 so I helped her cash out, and the staff count the bills right in front of me and I know it was a huge amount got put into the envelop. Before handing back to grandma, I checked the envelop and felt it was thick so I was sure that they gave us the exact amount.      Until today, when she opened the envelop and check, she said it was only $220. I was a bit upset because I know for sure that I got her the exact amount. She might have forgotten somewhere, so I told my mom to help looking around and in the envelop and I will give a call back.      I was a bit frustrated but I held back my anger and waited until my mom call me back. I asked if they've found it yet. Mom said: " YES, Grandma was putting in a fe...

 Parents' Conflicts      As an oldest child in the family, I always be the one who have to be in the middle in my parents' conversation. It could be saying that I'm their mail person, they used me to talk to each other. Since I was little, my understanding about this marriage was exhaustion. I have no clue how come my parents could be married when they're completely opposite in personality.       I was only six when they decided to separate due to a minor conflict between my mother and the sister-in-law, and my father did not defend my mother but stood in silence, thus, she left. As time went by, we were raised by our beloved aunty, she was my mother indeed. I could say that I literally had no bonding with my mother since little until I was ten, had my first menstrual cycle. My mother still didn't make peace with the family members, she had lots of hatred toward them. I just couldn't understand because those conflicts were the past, still, she wou...