My Little World

Little Brother's Big Day   My little brother, Tai, is a calm 20 years old guy who has been through lots of changes in his life. Since birth until five years old, Tai did not live with his mother after he turned six years old due to our parents's separation. Due to their conflict, I became his both sister and mom since we were living with our dad's family. Luckily, we got raised by our beloved aunty, she was our indeed mother. I was also played a part of raising him and always beside him when he in needed.  His learning ability was not as strong as mine since we were in school in Vietnam. I understood that he doesn't like school that much but he had to go to school for his education because he needed to. In July 2015, our family were lucky enough to begin our new chapter in America. My brother was in a culture shock for awhile until he got into high school. He had a hard time adapting new school,  new friend and even the food shock. After that we were happy for him to gr...

  Emotional Trauma      Since little, I was a good kid who always follow my mom's demand. I did not think much until I grew up and our family moved to America to live. My mom was who I always afraid of, it might be due to the anger from my mom. I do not know how to describe what my feeling toward mom right now, it's so strange and it could not be healed. My mom always have something to share and it's always negative or troublesome. I think maybe I suffered from depression and anxiety in the past, so I could never handle my mom's share, her question will always be: "Are you free? I have something to say/ share!?" I went ahead and tell her to text me what the matter about. Although I texted her that but somehow it triggered my emotion, my heart aroused so fast that I could not stay still while waiting for her text.      I don't know what to say, I just knew that whenever mom has texted me wanting to share her feeling or telling somethings, it triggers my...

 Get to Know Me  My MBTI: INFJ (An Advocate) - Introverted, iNtuition, Feeling, Judging 82% - Introverted Prefer fewer yet deep and meaningful social interaction Drawn to calmer environment 56% - Intuitive Imaginative, opened-mind,  Focus on hidden meaning & distant possibility 77% - Feeling Value emotional expression & sensitivity Prioritizing empathy, social harmony and cooperation  67% - Turbulent Self-conscious Sensitive to stress Success driven Perfectionistic Eager to improve What to know more about my MBTI I am the rarest personality type in the world which make up < 2% of population Known for warm empathy, keen insight and deep insight in human potential Got much appreciation from others for helping and caring      1. I'm on a different wavelength Dominant Intuition Explaining how the world work will be so difficult Often feel isolated or misunderstood by others     2. I'm a perfectionist and I'm procrastinate A feel of wa...

 Red Envelop      The Lunar New Year is around the corner! I was busy preparing the food as well as decorating the house. I shopped for food to worship the altar as usual. I pray for the good health and the success in both career and studying. Usually, it's my mom who clean up the house and prep the food, however, we got a sad news so mom will be staying with Grandma for about two-three months based on her health conditions. I did not complaint or get upset about anything because I knew that we have been through a lot this year. So, I would like this new year to be easy on me!     This year I got the job working with the kids, so I think of giving them some lucky money to wish them luck on everything. Though I spent out a lot this month, still I felt at peace in my heart. I'm happy when seeing they're happy as well. So I started prepping the red envelop for the kids, it was limited due to my budget so I just give the kids in Learning Support and Ms.Fazz's c...

      Grandma's Forgetfulness      I was having a little problem with grandma two hours right before Lunar New Year. Last week, I took her to cash out a few for her luck money gift to the grandchildren. She said to withdraw $400 so I helped her cash out, and the staff count the bills right in front of me and I know it was a huge amount got put into the envelop. Before handing back to grandma, I checked the envelop and felt it was thick so I was sure that they gave us the exact amount.      Until today, when she opened the envelop and check, she said it was only $220. I was a bit upset because I know for sure that I got her the exact amount. She might have forgotten somewhere, so I told my mom to help looking around and in the envelop and I will give a call back.      I was a bit frustrated but I held back my anger and waited until my mom call me back. I asked if they've found it yet. Mom said: " YES, Grandma was putting in a fe...

 Parents' Conflicts      As an oldest child in the family, I always be the one who have to be in the middle in my parents' conversation. It could be saying that I'm their mail person, they used me to talk to each other. Since I was little, my understanding about this marriage was exhaustion. I have no clue how come my parents could be married when they're completely opposite in personality.       I was only six when they decided to separate due to a minor conflict between my mother and the sister-in-law, and my father did not defend my mother but stood in silence, thus, she left. As time went by, we were raised by our beloved aunty, she was my mother indeed. I could say that I literally had no bonding with my mother since little until I was ten, had my first menstrual cycle. My mother still didn't make peace with the family members, she had lots of hatred toward them. I just couldn't understand because those conflicts were the past, still, she wou...